All characters appearing in this work (I use this term loosely) are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons like a political leader who fought for the liberation of a certain community is purely coincidental.
Still Keeping Track
So I started this blog to keep myself on track and I have been doing everything but that. I have been thinking and I realise that my problem is not tracking. I am a very good tracker. I can make a list and track it till death and realise each time that nothing significant is getting done. My problem, as a friend clearly pointed out, is sticking to the awesome list that I have made using my awesome To Do List app. And I am going to tackle that problem from Friday. For all those going ha ha because I am procrastinating on actually tackling the problem – I sort of need to figure out what my priorities need to be after careful discussions with a lot of people.
The Epiphany Moment
I read a really good article today about Procrastination from raptitude.com. He says there that he read a book called The Now Habit by Neil Fiore which has a section on psychological analysis about people who procrastinate. In the analysis section Neil mentions that people who are prone to serious procrastination are kids who have had high expectations placed on them or have exhibited talents early on. Subsequently when they give average performances, it is met with criticism.
But I don’t think that is my problem. I had an above average time in school with respect to performance and my parents did not beat me to pulp because 10 people got higher marks than me. Infact even my talents were praised too. I remember my mom and grandmom told me for a very long time that I was a great singer who is prone to some throat issues.
But what really hit home and I must say made me feel a little foolish was why people procrastinate. He says that
Procrastinators tend to be people who have, for whatever reason, developed to perceive an unusually strong association between their performance and their value as a person. This makes failure or criticism disproportionately painful, which leads naturally to hesitancy when it comes to the prospect of doing anything that reflects their ability — which is pretty much everything.
So it (procrastination) is not a function of laziness, apathy or work ethic but a neurotic self-defense behaviour that develops to protect a person’s sense of self-worth.
And then I realised that the only kind of work I get done is for the company I work for. I finish them diligently and on time with mild procrastination. I honestly believed up until now that it was the incentive that drove me to work when in reality it was the fact that I knew I was good at my work and didn’t have to prove that to myself. I have a healthy attitude towards challenges at work and give my best effort to all tasks involved. My personal goals on the other hand is a different story. They do not seem to be even close to completion.
My Experiments with Life
I am going to take a leaf out of David’s book (author of raptitude.com) and perform an experiment of my own. I am going to change my attitude towards my personal goals and instil in me a belief that I am more than what I do.
To start off I am taking the following oath for the rest of the month
(a) I will make sure I complete my daily To Do list with atleast one of the tasks being a step towards achieving my personal goals.
(b) I will track my progress every night and make note of what works and what doesn’t and add oaths to this list accordingly.
(c) I will create a list for the next day when I track my progress.
(d) I will not think of tasks as bigger than me. I will complete my tasks to the best of my ability and will not be hard on myself if things go wrong.
(e) I will stop surfing rediff.com, indiatimes.com, koimoi.com and watching serials or movies online as often as I do. There will be specific times in a day / week where I can browse these sites and it will be only once.
(f) The To Do list will also have some guilt free time (1.5 to 2 hours). I can do whatever I want here.
Now I am off to find out what my priorities are for this month and create my list. Good Luck to me!
Things I am thankful for this year – in no specific order
- Hollywood – The writers of Castle (Go ahead and judge me you ass), Greys anatomy (Christina and Mer are fighting. I have to watch), Modern Family (….) and Josh Duhamel (Man, is he hot).
- Discovering Marie biscuit and Melody – again.
- Smart phone with ToDo List app – I love how easy making a To Do List on this is.
- Krispy Kreme for opening two shops in Bangalore. That Donut Baker place makes worse donuts than I do.
- While on the subject of food (You knew there was going to be more than one) – Nitash Patisserie for making all Birthdays and Anniversaries extremely delicious with Lemon Custard Cakes, Chocolate and Pear Cakes and the like.
- Vashis on Commercial Street for selling me my best fitting jeans.
- Shamitha’s wedding – Learnt how to apply makeup and I am getting better at it. I think.
- FFC – For teaching me a little bit of Boxing, Muay Thai and Jiu Jitsu and also making me realize that the secret career I might have had if I had pursued it during my younger days is not Boxing.
- To Jayanth and Shamitha for giving me my first pair of awesome boots, To Siddharth for diligently trying to make me a morning person (I am waking up at 5 these days), and To David for providing a light at the end of the tunnel.
- Metro train – I have no idea what I would have done without you.
Things I am not thankful for this year
- Deepika Padukone – She makes me feel dowdy
2013 is coming to an end and as usual I find myself wondering whether I have achieved what I set out to do. The answer is a resounding NO. My goals ranged from losing weight to patents, from trying to convince big decision makers about ideas to getting out of my comfort zone. And I can see my friends sniggering at a few other things when they read this blog post. To all those friends I say “Die you people Die”.
But on a happy note, I have leads and that’s enough for now. And I have a quote for inspiration – “If you don’t fight feelings of giving up and cowering under pressure, you’re not doing anything worthwhile.” I am going to say this to myself a lot next year.
To all those reading this post and to those who aren’t – Merry Christmas and A very Happy New Year to you!
I have a survey to create now. Till my next post. Bye.
My sister Anu went for a walk early morning (5.00 a.m.) and came back home with Stubby. He has the unique distinction of throwing a tantrum in front of his father and finding himself a new home when things didn’t go his way – all this while he is very very young. Over achievers suck I tell you and I am coming across too many of them these days.
Anu found Stubby hiding under a car, strategically placing himself just out of his fathers reach who was trying to chase him out. When his father moved a little out of the way Stubby would try to come out and see how things are only to go back in when he caught his fathers face. All this was done amidst serious discussions about how he did not get enough paper and rag to play with and how his father always favoured his cute brother over him.
My sister chased the father away and saved Stubby. Bravo!
Needless to say JLo a.k.a. Brownie is being a diva again.
I find myself in a situation where I need to follow up on a hundred different things at the same time and I don’t want to let any of those opportunities go. So I am going to keep track of milestones and motivate myself.
Why in a blog you ask? Well, one of my goals is to have a better online presence. I can’t get myself to go on Facebook and Twitter yet, so the less obvious WordPress Blog it is.
I am not good at punchlines yet. Ahh.. the list continues. So till my post next week, Bye.